Sometimes I cry, unable to see the big picture and wondering what God is doing while I feel like I’m suffering.
But every time I open His word and listen, He speaks to me. He sees me like He sees this boy- ‘God heard the boy crying and the angel of God called to Hagar from heaven and said to her, “What is the matter, Hagar? Do not be afraid; God has heard the boy crying as he lies there. Lift the boy up and take him by the hand for I will make him into a great nation.’ Gen 21:17
And then He promises me this:
‘The Lord said, “I have indeed seen the misery of my people in Egypt. I have heard them crying out because of their slave drivers and I am concerned about their suffering. So I have come down to rescue them from the hand of the Egyptians and to bring them up out of that land, into a good and spacious land, a land flowing with milk and honey.’ Exo 3:7
How I long for the land of milk and honey! But I must walk this path He has set before me, focusing on the journey and not the destination. It is hard to be learning life’s lessons when you long for an easy road. It forces me to lay on my face before Jesus and cry out to Him, depending on Him for my self-worth and resting my fears at His feet. He reminds me, ‘There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out all fear...’ 1 John 4:18a.
So God, help me to accept your perfect love in my life and in doing so my fears will be forgotten and laid to rest with you.
Hi Deb:)
ReplyDeleteI haven't ventured into my Blogger forum site for a while due to my uni studies. After seeing a couple of your posts I thought I should stop by and say hello.
I think you’re doing a great job in terms of your nursing commitment on board the Africa Mercy. From what I can gather you have been participating in this role for over a 12 month period or more. In my opinion it is okay to take time out if you need a break. I would imagine it would be a constant emotional stressful environment seeing the medical cases that are being attended to on a weekly basis.
I have heard of similar health professionals who visit various medical missions to assist in the medical aid being attended to in that location. They seem to donate about 3-4 weeks of their annual leave when they go to places like that which could be an option for you.
I just brought myself a second hand Kymco Motor Scooter but I don’t have problems of getting knots in my hair One day I would like to purchase a bigger motorcycle and trek around Australia and Tasmania before I depart this earth.
I hope life gets better for you in the coming weeks.
Pete.